Work has been crazy for the past few weeks. That has its good and bad. The good side is that you didn’t have time to think about things that you shouldn’t think about, and you get really good sleep at night. The bad side is you didn’t have time to spend time thinking about things that you need to think about, and to spend time for rest (phyiscal and prayers…)
It’s good to have a long weekend after this crazy work when I can really come to rest and spend some quiet time with God.
After all these years, I’m still so immature. I still find myself very annoying (both to others and to myself). I still find myself having unreasonable expectations of others. I’m still so self-centred. There’s this inner anger and unrest that’s caused by stupid reasons and I’m just preoccupied with this. I’m sure others can feel it too… I’d like to get rid of it, really want to get rid of it. I want to be let go of these stupid anger and feelings of being treated unfairly. I want to embrace all that I have and not look at what I lack. I want to see things from the bright side and stay positive. I want people around me to be happy and make myself happy at the same time.
It’s a season of Thanksgiving. Unluckily I found myself buried in anger and complain mode for the 1st half of it. But luckily God reminds me once again how much I have that I need to give thanks for.
God, strip me from the feelings of being treated unfairly, strip me from my anger. Let my heart be open to Your goodness in Your ways, not mine. Help me see Your love in Your ways, not mine. Help me love. Amen.