This realization that I have today isn’t exactly new. But while I was troubled by the other thoughts, I could have never come to such realization.
When I got home today, while parking at the garage, I suddenly realized… Would I think about God this much if I have all I want? I don’t think so. I would have spent all my time with all other things. God would be out of the picture. Fr. Leung actually told me something like this when I had my last confession. If everything I want is granted to me, I’d probably be proud (I’m already proud, if I get what I want, I’d be EVEN more proud… arrgghh, I’m bad).
We all tend to 犯賤. We tend to forget about God when we’re all well and good. We tend to ask, we don’t always remember to thank God for what He has already granted to us. This realization is actually the same as what Felix told us about his story. When he thought he was searching for something, he found God instead. Maybe there’s a reason why I became part of the S+L team… I got back so much. Getting to know people’s stories is good. It all comes down to telling me how God works wonders in them. Lord, thanks for revealing those to me!